So this blog post is going to be a bit of a ramble as I have come to a point in my life where I have realized that.....
......Everything happens for a reason.
To be honest I have been through A LOT for my age, some good but mainly bad however I now know that sometimes the bad things in life can turn into good things.
So, for example, in my last post i explained about how we had to give Random back to her owner as her behavior wasn't good at all. Now, this was bad because I had built up a big bond with her and i couldn't bare the idea that she wasn't going to be a part of my life anymore. However, something good came out of giving Random back and that is that we got Spencer instead who has given me my confidence back and made me happy to ride again.
Like I said earlier, I have been through so much in my life that no 14 year old girl should ever go through and as bad as that is, it has actually changed my views on life and made me into the person that I am today.
People say that "You shouldn't change for anyone" and "Just be yourself" etc but that always used to annoy me because I never knew how to just "be myself" and I still don't always know how to be myself nowadays but my experiences, good and bad, have helped me change my personality and made me realize how to "be myself".
So here is a list of things that have been changed through my experiences with life:
1) Attitude towards others - I no longer let people walk all over me and push me around. If I don't like how people are treating me, I tell them that and then move myself away from them. I am happy with my small friendship group that we have all formed because we treat each other with respect and are always there for each other, especially when we need it most.
2) If you don't like something, change it - Now I don't do this with everything as in life as there are going to be things that we don't like but are going to have to put up with them anyway. However, like I said before, I would be happy to change who I hang around with if I wasn't happy with the way they would treat me because I don't see why anybody should be in the position where they feel upset or uncomfortable around other people.
3) Lastly, don't force a smile upon your face - As Jessie J says "It's OK not to be OK" and I 100% agree with this. I have gone through life trying to force a smile on my face when I actually just want to call up in a ball and cry forever and ever. However I don't understand why I never just let my true emotions show. I do this now and I actually feel more honest with myself. I understand that nobody wan'ts to hang around with a mardy cry baby but at the end of the day, who are you trying to impress? People should like you for who you are not who you are trying to be. If people see that you are upset or having a bad day then your true friends will offer you a shoulder to cry on and the people who don't offer you support aren't really worth worrying over. Why hang around with people who don't care about you when there are people who do really care about you and can help you deal with whatever it is that you are going through?
I know that what I have written is very mixed and a bit all over the place but to be completely honest I am having an off day today and I just want to cry all the time, so I thought that writing how I feel on this blog post will give me, and even you guys, something to look back on when we need a reminder that everything happens for a reason so there will be something good happen to us when we least expect it.
Question of the day:
How do you deal with your "off days" ?
Thank you to anyone who has read my blog posts and please don't hessitate to leave a comment as I will love to get to know you guys :-)
Bye for now, GemsBlog x x x
P.s My mum once told me "Imagine seeing half a glass of water on the side, this represents your views on life. So, if you see this glass of water as 'half empty' then you have a very negative mindset and have some bad views on your life. However, if you see it as being 'half full' then you have a positive mindset and you think that even though it isn't full, you still have half left. So even though you havent got one thing, you still have something else which is just as good.". I use this quote all the time as this usually gets me through the tough times. Hope this helps you through your tough times like it helps me!
Thursday, 29 September 2016
I've been super busy recently as summer ended :( and I am now back at school after a very good summer holiday. I haven't made a blog post in ages as I am now in year 10 so I have a lot of studying for my exams (which are just around the corner) and that means I have a hell of coursework and homework and very little time for writing blog posts however I have now settled back into school and got all my timetables sorted so I am able to manage my time more effectively.
Ooooh something exciting has happened in my life too......I am now loaning a new horse called Spencer who is 14 years old and is a Fell X.
(We had to give Random back to her owner and stop loaning her as she was old (20 years old to be exact) and have you ever heard the phrase "you can't teach an old dog new tricks"?...well Random was behaving VERY badly (bolting off with me and my mum, trying to buck us off etc) and apparently she has been doing that all her life, which is something the owner failed to tell us, so we persevered for a good year with her, trying to stop her doing it, using different training methods, different tack etc but it was no good and I wasn't able to go past a certain level in dressage as she basically knocked my confidence completely :( I was sad to give her back as I built such a big bond with her but "all good things come to an end")
However, I have now built an even bigger bond with Spencer. We went to see him a couple of weeks ago, me and my mum both rode him and he was perfect....as soon as I saw him in his field I fell in L.O.V.E with him and so did the rest of my family and friends! He has started to bring my confidence back after it got knocked by Random and I am finally starting to enjoy riding again (not that I didn't before but every time me and my mum got on Random we were not enjoying it as we were fighting a losing battle).
Spencer is a little unfit and slightly over weight as the owner has been working extra long shifts so never had time to ride him so he was in the field for a few weeks. Therefore me and my mum are both bringing him back into work slowly by riding him everyday for 15/30 minutes and I can already see improvements in him.
Anyway, talking of the devil (well he's really an angel), I have to go as me and my mum are going to go see him....oh and i might even take him for a trail ride around the cross country course (not over the jumps as he's still slightly unfit so just around the jumps) which should be fun as I never got the chance to do that with Random since she would just bolt off everywhere!
Bye for now, GemsBlog x x x